June 25, 2013

Jeremiah 29:12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.

Surrender to win is an expression that I heard early on in the 12 step program and wondered, what exactly does that mean? What is surrender and how does one do it? Surrender in war is an admission of defeat, to surrender is to give up, and to give in. I always thought of surrender as a sign of weakness. Yet in scripture and in the 12 steps it’s a sign of strength. We give up controlling our own lives, surrendering our will and lives over to the care of God. To surrender is an action. When you totally surrender you are saying, God I want to change. In order for you to surrender you have to actually take steps to start that change. We must yield our will and stop fighting, people, places and things. God has a plan for our lives, and surrendering to Him means we set aside our own plans and learn to trust His.

As I remember and look back at how terrifying my initial surrender was, I also know it was life changing for me. No one can tell you how to give up, how to give in, how to surrender. It’s personal, but those who have done it are rewarded with a new life of freedom from bondages to things that controlled them. Giving up ones choices can be a struggle for many of us. Many years ago chaos was a way of life for me, and the thought of NEVER being able to numb out again from the chaos was quite scary. What would life look life, who would I become? But I learned life is lived “One Day at a Time!” We surrender our will and our life over to God daily. The future is not in our hands, it’s in His. Control is an illusion and we learn that as time goes on that we never had control of anything in the first place, certainly not ourselves. We were usually out of control.

There is a shift that took place for me. The life I lived became too painful and change was what I wanted. But how do I change it, was the million dollar question? I had to admit defeat and find a new way to live, surrendering my life meant, following God’s lead instead of my own, without knowing where he’s taking me. Learning to wait on his timing without knowing when it will come, expecting a miracle without knowing how God will provide it, and learning to trust God’s purpose without understanding the circumstances. But I was ready, and I knew I was surrendered to God when I began to rely on God, instead of trying to manipulate others, force my agenda, and control the situation. I let go and let God. I learned I didn’t have to always be in charge. Instead of trying harder, I learned to trust Him more. Is there anything you want to surrender? He’s wants to help you. I’m rooting for you, you can do it, let go, let God.

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