Step Three: Made a Decision to Turn Our Will and Our Lives to the Care of God as We Understood Him
Know that the LORD is God. It is he who made us, and we are his we are his people, the sheep of his pasture. – Psalm 100:3 (NIV)
One cool winter night in 1981 after an AA meeting my friend and I were driving on Beach Blvd in Buena Park CA discussing God. As we chatted she eventually asked me, “Sandy, where is God?” I thought about it for a moment and began to answer “He’s in the trees, the stars, the sky he’s in everything he’s everywhere! With a huge grin on her face she reached across the car with her finger pointed at my chest and touched me right in the center of my heart, “He’s right there!” I began to weep. I never knew God resided inside of us.
As a kid I wasn’t raised with any religious affiliation but I’ve always prayed, and I’ve always believed in God. I had a God of my own understanding all of my life. And it appeared to me he liked everyone else much better. In my mind he was a judge and he had a big black book and with every-ones name in it, good and the bad. Mine was under the bad, I was always getting check marks next to my name I saw God as displeased with me. I had done some pretty radical things and had hurt people, through not intentionally, I knew I had. I wasn’t one of his favorite people and I believed he had favorite people.
Drinking and drugs had caused me to make a lot of wrong choices in my life. Well that night at thirty days of sobriety so long ago; I had a spiritual experience that was the beginning of a relationship with God that would radically change my life. However, it took me another 12 years before I made a decision to turn my will and my life over not to a higher power or a God of my own understanding, but to THE POWER…JESUS CHRIST. It was during a detox after 12 years of sobriety when I heard about Christ and his grace! It was the most pivotal experience of my life.
We don’t cry out to God in our greatest moments it’s usually when we are down and out and can’t fix the mess we’ve made. We come to know we are powerless and need help. We surrender and become willing! Eventually I understood where God is…his Spirit resides within us when we receive Christ as our savior. Its true God is in everything and everywhere and nothing is hidden from Him. The decision to turn my will and my life over to the care of Jesus Christ has been the best one I ever made. He’s not a God of my understanding He’s God who makes me understand. God loves us with an everlasting love, Christ paid a price for us and we do not have to perform for him, we believe. God sees us, God loves to love us, he’s not mad at us, and he cares for us. So…my question to you is….where is God?